COWBOY JAMBOREE MAGAZINE & PRESS
  • CJ MAGAZINE
  • Style & Submit
    • About CJ
  • Hidden behind the door that sorrow locked.
    • Folks, It's Ags Connolly!
    • The Room
    • Dressing in Front of the Open Gas Oven for Warmth
    • 3 Prose Poems by Jeffrey Herman
    • The Cat in the Guest Bedroom
    • Last Call at Tully's Joint
    • Keepsake
    • The Sold Man
    • My Man Tomato Can
    • The Alternator
    • Blue Skies
    • Ain't No Dark Til Something Shines
    • Old Skip
    • Chicago Skyline
    • Uptown Lanes
    • Behind the Door
  • Books
    • I FEEL JUST LIKE A DOGWOOD TREE
    • This World Will Never Run Out of Strangers
    • Songs of the Cyberspace Cattle Drive
    • WEST OF DESTRY
    • Small Town Mastodons
    • Traveling Alone
    • All and Then None of You
    • Poachers and Pills
    • Poor Birds
    • The Lowest Basin
    • Bop City Swing
    • Nothing Good Ever Happens in a Flyover State
    • THE TICKS WILL EAT YOU WHOLE
    • Rolling on the Bottom
    • Oblivion Angels
    • The New Salvation
    • TEXAS WIND
    • Silences, Ohio
    • WHERE DARK THINGS GROW
    • San Diego Stories
    • HONKY
    • The Wild Familiar
    • KUDZU by Clem Flowers
    • IN LINE AT WALMART WITH ALL THE OTHER DAMNED
    • I CAN OUTDANCE JESUS
    • MOTEL
  • Sheldon Lee Compton
    • Ghosts by Sheldon Lee Compton
    • I AM WAR MR TOLSTOY
    • Her Little Place of Dying
    • The Caretaker
    • On SLC's Brown Bottle
    • Somebody Take Care of Little Walter
    • Oblivion Angels
    • The Orchard Is Full of Sound (excerpt)
    • Dog With a Rabbit's Head
    • By-blow
    • Until the Going Down of the River
    • The Judas Steer
    • Tooling Up
    • DYSPHORIA (excerpt)
  • Interviews, Reviews, & Presses
    • CJ Music Review South of Mars
    • CJ Music Review Matt Moran & the Palominos The Ba'ar
    • CJ Music Review WPH STILL FEELIN' THE PAYNE
    • CJ Music Review R Porter Roll with the Punches
    • Shelby Hinte's Howling Women
    • Of Fathers & Gods
    • Awakenings Review
    • Jaded by Wilson Koewing
    • Jesse Hilson's The Tattletales
    • Here in the Dark by Meagan Lucas
    • Sophomore Slump by Leigh Chadwick
    • Shadows Slow Dancing in Derelict Room
    • Anthony Koronda's Broken Bottles
    • Scott Blackburn's It Dies With You
    • Donald Ryan's Don Bronco's (Working Title) Shell
    • Jay Gertzman's The Promise of Country Noir
    • Hard Mountain Clay Review
    • Blake Johnson's Prodigal: An American Parable
  • Jobbers
    • Dead Wrestlers
    • The Night Bruiser Came to Town
    • Big Rig by Shaun Jex
    • A Night Out with Big Ricky by Katy Goforth
    • War Eagle by David Barker
    • True Dreams of Wichita by Shaun Jex
    • Doink the Clown Works Birthday Parties by Michael Chin
    • The Ballad of Ethel Bridges by David P. Barker
    • House Show in Badger County High School Gym by Simon Nagel
    • 288 Miles by David P. Barker
    • Corn Dogs by Shaun Jex
    • Getting Ready + Cowboy by Michael Chin
    • American Dream by Robert Libbey
    • Training Partner by A.A. Rubin
    • Finding the von Erichs by Shaun Jex
    • The Making of Big Sandy by Michael Carter
    • Pot Roast from Vance Godbey's by Mark A. Nobles
    • Abdullah the Butcher in Gotham by Mark A. Nobles
    • PWI by Josh Olsen
  • CJ Issues Archive
    • Oh Death!
    • Flood Waters
    • with Alacrity!
    • the Family Strain
    • All We Need of Hell-Harry Crews Tribute
    • My Dog Died-a Larry Brown inspired issue
    • Rural Enterprises
    • Grotesque to Art-in the vein of Donald Ray Pollock
    • Henry Chinaski is a Friend of Mine-the Charles Bukowski issue
    • a Mess of Catfish
    • Prine Primed-incited by John Prine
    • Asquint
    • Buried Child-inspired by Sam Shepard
    • New Fools Are Here to Take Your Place-incited by Breece D'J Pancake
    • THALIA ET ALIA-incited by Larry McMurtry
    • Country & Folk
    • Nothing's Gonna Change the Way You Feel About Me Now
    • ISSUE 9.2: the All Covers Album >
      • Sitting in the Laundromat with A Manual for Cleaning Women
      • Kentucky Folklore
      • Caught in a Trap
      • Are You Sure Merle Done It This Way?
      • Tracking
      • Playing Hooky
      • Evangelina & Hunting Bremmer's Mesa
      • Catty-Corner House
      • Blood on the Creek Bank
      • Skeeter
      • Vivian Davis, American
      • Thyroid
      • Wonderin'
      • Playing Cowboy
      • Old Dog
      • Archipelago
      • Keep YR Eye on the Moon
      • 3 Poems by Justin Carter
      • It Ain't Me
      • Heaven's Gonna Have a Honky-Tonk
    • ISSUE 10.1: A CASE OF KINK >
      • Deadhead
      • Fickster the Fixer
      • Get the Money
      • Shady Acres
      • The Ugly Death of Ferrari McGee
      • Burly Pete Calls It A Day
      • Blame It On The Blue Line
      • The Detective
      • The Tattletales (excerpt)
    • ISSUE 10.2: Tough Women, Gritty Tales >
      • "Stupid" by Rebecca Tiger
      • "Rattlesnakes" by Sabrina Hicks
      • "Destination Unknown" by Sarah Holloway
      • "Juniper" by Sarah Holloway
      • "The Stand" by Kathryn Silver-Hajo
      • "On Friday, Good Catholics Eat Fish" by Terena Elizabeth Bell
      • "Bodies in Bags" by Jamie Gallagher
      • "Sun Down" by Amy Marques
      • "Fourteen" by Megan Hanlon
      • "A Stroll" by Natalie Nee
      • "White Biped Form, 1954" by Mary Thorson
      • "Thanks for Stopping" by Tom Andes
      • "Dog Days" by Angela James
      • "26" by Pam Avoledo
      • "To The Men I've Missed" by Katy Goforth
  • Our Father's Lit: Western Pulp
Last Call at Tully’s Joint

by JD Clapp

 
Like every other day for the past two decades, I pushed through the double doors into the darkness of Tully’s Joint about 3:30 p.m. Unlike every other day, today I wasn’t looking for 80- proof numbness; today I needed liquid courage. I got the usual hello nods, half-mast waves, and a few verbal “Jimmy” acknowledgments as I headed to the bar.
           
The place was filled with the usual afternoon crew—neighborhood folks just getting off the first shift, a few retired old timers drinking out their days and pension, and all the folks who got furloughed last month. Part of me knew it was a bar with a dead souil, a repository for the lost and forgotten…people who stopped looking for a way out or up…I just never had a reason to admit until now. We all knew each other, grew up in the same neighborhood, worked at the same plant. This place was our home away from home, the place where we unwound after work, spent our weekends, celebrated our small wins, mourned our dead. Tully’s wasn’t much anymore, but it was fucking ours.
           
Sally the barkeep slid me a PBR draft and a shot of Old Grandad without asking. Hell, why would she? I only sprung for the good stuff on holidays or special occasions and today was just another Tuesday in early October.
           
“Thanks, Sally. How’s it?”
           
“Same old shit, Jimmy,” she answered.

She looked back at Fox News on the TV, the sound off and closed captions flashing across the screen. The TV sat on the back wall amid a cobweb-covered deer head, green Rolling Rock and Yuengling neon signs, and the tattered blaze orange “Welcome Hunters” sign that went up in the 1970s and never came down. Shit, even the hunters are gone these days…The juke played the old country playlist our fathers had listened to on a loop—Johnny, Willy, Merle, Patsy—until somebody fed it a couple of bucks and shattered the boredom and comfort of the familiar with some new shit.
           
“You see this shit? They’re trying to bust the fucking unions again,” she said.
           
“Bastards always are. Good thing, most of us in here are vested,” I said.
           
“For now…Give ‘em time and they’ll figure out how to fuck you out of that, too,” she muttered.
           
I took a sip of my beer, shook a Camel unfiltered from the soft pack and lit it with my Bic. I took a drag and felt the first hit of nicotine in over a month. Fuck, I missed these.
           
Sally noticed the smoke and slid me an ashtray.
           
“You back on the darts?” Sally asked.
           
“Yeah...Why not? Somethin’s gonna kill me. Might as well be somethin’ I enjoy.”
           
She nodded, turned back to the TV.

***

I was almost through my first round, when my phone vibrated. I flipped it over and saw the text notification I’d expected. It was from my only kid, Kenny. Since his mom bolted three years ago, it’d been just me and him, living in the shitty shack of a house my old man left me.
           
“Pop, thanks for the offer, but I got this. Don’t mess with your pension for me. Save it for your golden years!”
           
I knew there was no arguing with him, now. I’d already offered to cash in my pension to pay his tuition twice. He’d said no both times. Strike three…I guess this is the only way…
           
I texted back: “I get it son. I’m proud of you. I know you’ll figure it out. Love —Pops.”

***           

I looked around Tully’s, took a gander at what my golden years were destined to be. We all worked and drank, then when the work was finally over, we drank waiting to die. You ain’t gonna miss out on much. But it’s gonna be hard on the boy. Shit. Maybe…
           
I thought about when I was his age, just out of high school. I’d almost escaped with a football scholarship. But, as things go in this town, a girl and a union job make some fucking powerful anchors. I was ok with that for me; I’d had a decent run. I loved my son; had a few good friends and a job, and a house that used to be worth something…but this was a dying town, supported by a dying factory. We were hanging on a thin fucking thread. It was only a matter of time. And the traditions that bonded us—the hope and certainty had already begun to give way to drugs and crime. I could see Kenny’s future if he didn’t leave now. No. Not for him.
A took a sip of my whiskey and tried to talk myself out of it. But something my old man told me when Kenny was born had always stuck—“A good father wants more for their kids than he had.” His idea of more was for me becoming a foreman at the plant…No, even if the plant and the union weren’t going down the shitter, I wanted better for Kenny.
           
I drained the last of my whiskey and waved Sally over.
           
“Another round?” she asked.
           
“Yeah, but give me a double Red Breast with my beer.”
           
She raised an eyebrow.
           
“What’s the occasion?” she asked.
           
“Kenny is going to Pitt…he’s getting out of this shithole.”
           
She looked at me with puzzled eyes, then slowly smiled.
           
“Well, Jesus Christ. Good for Kenny…good for him.”

***

I slowly drained my drinks, taking it all in again, running the shit over and over in my head. I stubbed out the end of my smoke and lit another. I pulled the pension papers from my pocket and looked at them again to be sure. If I died before retirement, Kenny gets the cash value of my pension--$209,000. That, plus the 50K or so he’d get for the house, were a ticket out of this shithole. I put the papers back in my pocket.

I went over the plan again. An accident…driving drunk…too fast. It had to be that. It had to go down like that. I drained the last of the Red Breast, and waved Sally over.

“Hit me once more,” I said.

She smiled.

“Bring Kenny in here for a free round on me. Fucking hell. Kenny’s gonna be a college boy,” she said.
​
I smiled.

“Yeah, a college boy. Imagine that.”




JD Clapp writes in San Diego, CA. His work has appeared in The Milk House, Revolution John, PovertyHouse, and numerous others. His story, One Last Drop, was a finalist in the 2023 Hemingway Shorts Literary Journal, Short Story Competition.  His short story collection, Poachers and Pills, was published by Cowboy Jamboree Press in 2025.

           
 
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  • CJ MAGAZINE
  • Style & Submit
    • About CJ
  • Hidden behind the door that sorrow locked.
    • Folks, It's Ags Connolly!
    • The Room
    • Dressing in Front of the Open Gas Oven for Warmth
    • 3 Prose Poems by Jeffrey Herman
    • The Cat in the Guest Bedroom
    • Last Call at Tully's Joint
    • Keepsake
    • The Sold Man
    • My Man Tomato Can
    • The Alternator
    • Blue Skies
    • Ain't No Dark Til Something Shines
    • Old Skip
    • Chicago Skyline
    • Uptown Lanes
    • Behind the Door
  • Books
    • I FEEL JUST LIKE A DOGWOOD TREE
    • This World Will Never Run Out of Strangers
    • Songs of the Cyberspace Cattle Drive
    • WEST OF DESTRY
    • Small Town Mastodons
    • Traveling Alone
    • All and Then None of You
    • Poachers and Pills
    • Poor Birds
    • The Lowest Basin
    • Bop City Swing
    • Nothing Good Ever Happens in a Flyover State
    • THE TICKS WILL EAT YOU WHOLE
    • Rolling on the Bottom
    • Oblivion Angels
    • The New Salvation
    • TEXAS WIND
    • Silences, Ohio
    • WHERE DARK THINGS GROW
    • San Diego Stories
    • HONKY
    • The Wild Familiar
    • KUDZU by Clem Flowers
    • IN LINE AT WALMART WITH ALL THE OTHER DAMNED
    • I CAN OUTDANCE JESUS
    • MOTEL
  • Sheldon Lee Compton
    • Ghosts by Sheldon Lee Compton
    • I AM WAR MR TOLSTOY
    • Her Little Place of Dying
    • The Caretaker
    • On SLC's Brown Bottle
    • Somebody Take Care of Little Walter
    • Oblivion Angels
    • The Orchard Is Full of Sound (excerpt)
    • Dog With a Rabbit's Head
    • By-blow
    • Until the Going Down of the River
    • The Judas Steer
    • Tooling Up
    • DYSPHORIA (excerpt)
  • Interviews, Reviews, & Presses
    • CJ Music Review South of Mars
    • CJ Music Review Matt Moran & the Palominos The Ba'ar
    • CJ Music Review WPH STILL FEELIN' THE PAYNE
    • CJ Music Review R Porter Roll with the Punches
    • Shelby Hinte's Howling Women
    • Of Fathers & Gods
    • Awakenings Review
    • Jaded by Wilson Koewing
    • Jesse Hilson's The Tattletales
    • Here in the Dark by Meagan Lucas
    • Sophomore Slump by Leigh Chadwick
    • Shadows Slow Dancing in Derelict Room
    • Anthony Koronda's Broken Bottles
    • Scott Blackburn's It Dies With You
    • Donald Ryan's Don Bronco's (Working Title) Shell
    • Jay Gertzman's The Promise of Country Noir
    • Hard Mountain Clay Review
    • Blake Johnson's Prodigal: An American Parable
  • Jobbers
    • Dead Wrestlers
    • The Night Bruiser Came to Town
    • Big Rig by Shaun Jex
    • A Night Out with Big Ricky by Katy Goforth
    • War Eagle by David Barker
    • True Dreams of Wichita by Shaun Jex
    • Doink the Clown Works Birthday Parties by Michael Chin
    • The Ballad of Ethel Bridges by David P. Barker
    • House Show in Badger County High School Gym by Simon Nagel
    • 288 Miles by David P. Barker
    • Corn Dogs by Shaun Jex
    • Getting Ready + Cowboy by Michael Chin
    • American Dream by Robert Libbey
    • Training Partner by A.A. Rubin
    • Finding the von Erichs by Shaun Jex
    • The Making of Big Sandy by Michael Carter
    • Pot Roast from Vance Godbey's by Mark A. Nobles
    • Abdullah the Butcher in Gotham by Mark A. Nobles
    • PWI by Josh Olsen
  • CJ Issues Archive
    • Oh Death!
    • Flood Waters
    • with Alacrity!
    • the Family Strain
    • All We Need of Hell-Harry Crews Tribute
    • My Dog Died-a Larry Brown inspired issue
    • Rural Enterprises
    • Grotesque to Art-in the vein of Donald Ray Pollock
    • Henry Chinaski is a Friend of Mine-the Charles Bukowski issue
    • a Mess of Catfish
    • Prine Primed-incited by John Prine
    • Asquint
    • Buried Child-inspired by Sam Shepard
    • New Fools Are Here to Take Your Place-incited by Breece D'J Pancake
    • THALIA ET ALIA-incited by Larry McMurtry
    • Country & Folk
    • Nothing's Gonna Change the Way You Feel About Me Now
    • ISSUE 9.2: the All Covers Album >
      • Sitting in the Laundromat with A Manual for Cleaning Women
      • Kentucky Folklore
      • Caught in a Trap
      • Are You Sure Merle Done It This Way?
      • Tracking
      • Playing Hooky
      • Evangelina & Hunting Bremmer's Mesa
      • Catty-Corner House
      • Blood on the Creek Bank
      • Skeeter
      • Vivian Davis, American
      • Thyroid
      • Wonderin'
      • Playing Cowboy
      • Old Dog
      • Archipelago
      • Keep YR Eye on the Moon
      • 3 Poems by Justin Carter
      • It Ain't Me
      • Heaven's Gonna Have a Honky-Tonk
    • ISSUE 10.1: A CASE OF KINK >
      • Deadhead
      • Fickster the Fixer
      • Get the Money
      • Shady Acres
      • The Ugly Death of Ferrari McGee
      • Burly Pete Calls It A Day
      • Blame It On The Blue Line
      • The Detective
      • The Tattletales (excerpt)
    • ISSUE 10.2: Tough Women, Gritty Tales >
      • "Stupid" by Rebecca Tiger
      • "Rattlesnakes" by Sabrina Hicks
      • "Destination Unknown" by Sarah Holloway
      • "Juniper" by Sarah Holloway
      • "The Stand" by Kathryn Silver-Hajo
      • "On Friday, Good Catholics Eat Fish" by Terena Elizabeth Bell
      • "Bodies in Bags" by Jamie Gallagher
      • "Sun Down" by Amy Marques
      • "Fourteen" by Megan Hanlon
      • "A Stroll" by Natalie Nee
      • "White Biped Form, 1954" by Mary Thorson
      • "Thanks for Stopping" by Tom Andes
      • "Dog Days" by Angela James
      • "26" by Pam Avoledo
      • "To The Men I've Missed" by Katy Goforth
  • Our Father's Lit: Western Pulp