COWBOY JAMBOREE MAGAZINE & PRESS
  • CJ MAGAZINE
  • Style & Submit
    • About CJ
  • Hidden behind the door that sorrow locked.
    • Folks, It's Ags Connolly!
    • The Room
    • Dressing in Front of the Open Gas Oven for Warmth
    • 3 Prose Poems by Jeffrey Herman
    • The Cat in the Guest Bedroom
    • Last Call at Tully's Joint
    • Keepsake
    • The Sold Man
    • My Man Tomato Can
    • The Alternator
    • Blue Skies
    • Ain't No Dark Til Something Shines
    • Old Skip
    • Chicago Skyline
    • Uptown Lanes
    • Behind the Door
  • Books
    • WEST OF DESTRY
    • Small Town Mastodons
    • Traveling Alone
    • All and Then None of You
    • Poachers and Pills
    • Poor Birds
    • The Lowest Basin
    • Nothing Good Ever Happens in a Flyover State
    • THE TICKS WILL EAT YOU WHOLE
    • Rolling on the Bottom
    • Oblivion Angels
    • The New Salvation
    • TEXAS WIND
    • Silences, Ohio
    • WHERE DARK THINGS GROW
    • San Diego Stories
    • HONKY
    • The Wild Familiar
    • KUDZU by Clem Flowers
    • IN LINE AT WALMART WITH ALL THE OTHER DAMNED
    • I CAN OUTDANCE JESUS
    • MOTEL
  • Sheldon Lee Compton
    • Ghosts by Sheldon Lee Compton
    • I AM WAR MR TOLSTOY
    • Her Little Place of Dying
    • The Caretaker
    • On SLC's Brown Bottle
    • Somebody Take Care of Little Walter
    • Oblivion Angels
    • The Orchard Is Full of Sound (excerpt)
    • Dog With a Rabbit's Head
    • By-blow
    • Until the Going Down of the River
    • The Judas Steer
    • Tooling Up
    • DYSPHORIA (excerpt)
  • Interviews, Reviews, & Presses
    • CJ Music Review Matt Moran & the Palominos The Ba'ar
    • CJ Music Review WPH STILL FEELIN' THE PAYNE
    • CJ Music Review R Porter Roll with the Punches
    • Shelby Hinte's Howling Women
    • Of Fathers & Gods
    • Awakenings Review
    • Jaded by Wilson Koewing
    • Jesse Hilson's The Tattletales
    • Here in the Dark by Meagan Lucas
    • Sophomore Slump by Leigh Chadwick
    • Shadows Slow Dancing in Derelict Room
    • Anthony Koronda's Broken Bottles
    • Scott Blackburn's It Dies With You
    • Donald Ryan's Don Bronco's (Working Title) Shell
    • Jay Gertzman's The Promise of Country Noir
    • Hard Mountain Clay Review
    • Blake Johnson's Prodigal: An American Parable
  • Jobbers
    • Dead Wrestlers
    • The Night Bruiser Came to Town
    • Big Rig by Shaun Jex
    • A Night Out with Big Ricky by Katy Goforth
    • War Eagle by David Barker
    • True Dreams of Wichita by Shaun Jex
    • Doink the Clown Works Birthday Parties by Michael Chin
    • The Ballad of Ethel Bridges by David P. Barker
    • House Show in Badger County High School Gym by Simon Nagel
    • 288 Miles by David P. Barker
    • Corn Dogs by Shaun Jex
    • Getting Ready + Cowboy by Michael Chin
    • American Dream by Robert Libbey
    • Training Partner by A.A. Rubin
    • Finding the von Erichs by Shaun Jex
    • The Making of Big Sandy by Michael Carter
    • Pot Roast from Vance Godbey's by Mark A. Nobles
    • Abdullah the Butcher in Gotham by Mark A. Nobles
    • PWI by Josh Olsen
  • CJ Issues Archive
    • Oh Death!
    • Flood Waters
    • with Alacrity!
    • the Family Strain
    • All We Need of Hell-Harry Crews Tribute
    • My Dog Died-a Larry Brown inspired issue
    • Rural Enterprises
    • Grotesque to Art-in the vein of Donald Ray Pollock
    • Henry Chinaski is a Friend of Mine-the Charles Bukowski issue
    • a Mess of Catfish
    • Prine Primed-incited by John Prine
    • Asquint
    • Buried Child-inspired by Sam Shepard
    • New Fools Are Here to Take Your Place-incited by Breece D'J Pancake
    • THALIA ET ALIA-incited by Larry McMurtry
    • Country & Folk
    • Nothing's Gonna Change the Way You Feel About Me Now
    • ISSUE 9.2: the All Covers Album >
      • Sitting in the Laundromat with A Manual for Cleaning Women
      • Kentucky Folklore
      • Caught in a Trap
      • Are You Sure Merle Done It This Way?
      • Tracking
      • Playing Hooky
      • Evangelina & Hunting Bremmer's Mesa
      • Catty-Corner House
      • Blood on the Creek Bank
      • Skeeter
      • Vivian Davis, American
      • Thyroid
      • Wonderin'
      • Playing Cowboy
      • Old Dog
      • Archipelago
      • Keep YR Eye on the Moon
      • 3 Poems by Justin Carter
      • It Ain't Me
      • Heaven's Gonna Have a Honky-Tonk
    • ISSUE 10.1: A CASE OF KINK >
      • Deadhead
      • Fickster the Fixer
      • Get the Money
      • Shady Acres
      • The Ugly Death of Ferrari McGee
      • Burly Pete Calls It A Day
      • Blame It On The Blue Line
      • The Detective
      • The Tattletales (excerpt)
    • ISSUE 10.2: Tough Women, Gritty Tales >
      • "Stupid" by Rebecca Tiger
      • "Rattlesnakes" by Sabrina Hicks
      • "Destination Unknown" by Sarah Holloway
      • "Juniper" by Sarah Holloway
      • "The Stand" by Kathryn Silver-Hajo
      • "On Friday, Good Catholics Eat Fish" by Terena Elizabeth Bell
      • "Bodies in Bags" by Jamie Gallagher
      • "Sun Down" by Amy Marques
      • "Fourteen" by Megan Hanlon
      • "A Stroll" by Natalie Nee
      • "White Biped Form, 1954" by Mary Thorson
      • "Thanks for Stopping" by Tom Andes
      • "Dog Days" by Angela James
      • "26" by Pam Avoledo
      • "To The Men I've Missed" by Katy Goforth
  • Our Father's Lit: Western Pulp

True Dreams of Wichita

TRUE DREAMS OF WICHITA

Shaun Jex

Jacob West sat in the passenger seat of a run-down Honda and stared out the window. The blinking red lights of cell towers dotted the landscape, the only visible feature against the black of night. He wore a cheap pair of earbuds purchased at a gas station.
 
Three other wrestlers were jammed into the car. They were on their way to Wichita for a Saturday night show. It was a 363-mile haul from Dallas, where they’d wrestled at a mostly empty VA hall a few hours before. The trek was a straight shot up I-35. Five and a half hours without stops.
 
Even during daylight, there wasn’t much to see on the drive. Just billboards, mile markers, and the occasional lurid glow of an adult video store. They passed a few 18-wheelers and pickups as they made their way through the Arbuckle Mountains and Paul’s Valley. Jacob tried to get one of the truckers to blow his horn, something he hadn’t done since he was a kid. The guy gave him the finger and kept driving.
 
Jacob’s phone buzzed. It was a message from Pam. He opened the text and saw a picture of their little boy blowing out the candles of a birthday cake at Chuck E. Cheese. He typed out a quick response.
 
How was the party?  
 
Good. All his little friends from the pre-school showed up.
 
I’ll bet that was crazy.
 
Yeah. I’m exhausted. Whoever came up with Chuck E. Cheese should be shot.
 
I’ll challenge him to a deathmatch. Beat him with a barbed wire bat.
 
LOL
 
Did Ethan like the present I got him?
 
A few seconds later, a picture came through of their boy holding a plastic wrestling belt over his head. His face wore a scowl, the one he used when Jacob pretended to wrestle with him. A deep purple shiner surrounded his right eye.
 
What happened to his face???
 
Oh, I thought I told you…He was playing and jumped off the arm of the
couch. He hit his eye on the table.
 
Oh, shit. Did he have to go to the hospital?
 
We went to the doctor, but there were no breaks or anything. Just a bruise.
 
Poor guy.

He was asking for you when we drove to the doctor’s office and while we sat in the waiting
room. He really wanted you to be there.
 
…
 
We miss you.
 
I miss you too. You know that.
 
The two had been an off-and-on couple since high school. They grew up in the same small, East Texas town and attended the same Methodist church. She was a cheerleader, a petite brunette with shoulder-length hair, ice grey eyes, and a mouth that could outswear a sailor. He was smitten from the moment they met.
 
They lost touch when she’d gone to college in Lubbock but re-connected when she returned two years later. She’d dropped out. Burn out, she said. Plus, Lubbock sucked. Like living in a dust-choked circle of hell.
 
He needed to start thinking about his next match. The show at Wichita was going to be televised. It was a late-night local broadcast, but it was his first time on television. He needed to do well. That type of exposure could help get him out of the bullshit local circuits.    
 
Hey, I hate to do this, but I’ve gotta go. It’s my turn to drive. I’ll drop you a note when we get to Wichita.
 
…
 
I love you.
 
…
 
Pam?
 
I love you too.
 
 Jacob powered off the phone and jammed it in his pocket. He spent a few minutes staring out the passenger side window, listening to the uneven whir of the pavement as it met the car’s threadbare tires. He hoped the drone would drive thoughts of home from his head, but they kept a firm hold on him.
 
He couldn’t afford the distraction. He needed to focus on Wichita. The rest would be there when he was done. At least, that was the hope.
 
“Hey,” Jacob said. “Do you mind if I drive awhile?”
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  • CJ MAGAZINE
  • Style & Submit
    • About CJ
  • Hidden behind the door that sorrow locked.
    • Folks, It's Ags Connolly!
    • The Room
    • Dressing in Front of the Open Gas Oven for Warmth
    • 3 Prose Poems by Jeffrey Herman
    • The Cat in the Guest Bedroom
    • Last Call at Tully's Joint
    • Keepsake
    • The Sold Man
    • My Man Tomato Can
    • The Alternator
    • Blue Skies
    • Ain't No Dark Til Something Shines
    • Old Skip
    • Chicago Skyline
    • Uptown Lanes
    • Behind the Door
  • Books
    • WEST OF DESTRY
    • Small Town Mastodons
    • Traveling Alone
    • All and Then None of You
    • Poachers and Pills
    • Poor Birds
    • The Lowest Basin
    • Nothing Good Ever Happens in a Flyover State
    • THE TICKS WILL EAT YOU WHOLE
    • Rolling on the Bottom
    • Oblivion Angels
    • The New Salvation
    • TEXAS WIND
    • Silences, Ohio
    • WHERE DARK THINGS GROW
    • San Diego Stories
    • HONKY
    • The Wild Familiar
    • KUDZU by Clem Flowers
    • IN LINE AT WALMART WITH ALL THE OTHER DAMNED
    • I CAN OUTDANCE JESUS
    • MOTEL
  • Sheldon Lee Compton
    • Ghosts by Sheldon Lee Compton
    • I AM WAR MR TOLSTOY
    • Her Little Place of Dying
    • The Caretaker
    • On SLC's Brown Bottle
    • Somebody Take Care of Little Walter
    • Oblivion Angels
    • The Orchard Is Full of Sound (excerpt)
    • Dog With a Rabbit's Head
    • By-blow
    • Until the Going Down of the River
    • The Judas Steer
    • Tooling Up
    • DYSPHORIA (excerpt)
  • Interviews, Reviews, & Presses
    • CJ Music Review Matt Moran & the Palominos The Ba'ar
    • CJ Music Review WPH STILL FEELIN' THE PAYNE
    • CJ Music Review R Porter Roll with the Punches
    • Shelby Hinte's Howling Women
    • Of Fathers & Gods
    • Awakenings Review
    • Jaded by Wilson Koewing
    • Jesse Hilson's The Tattletales
    • Here in the Dark by Meagan Lucas
    • Sophomore Slump by Leigh Chadwick
    • Shadows Slow Dancing in Derelict Room
    • Anthony Koronda's Broken Bottles
    • Scott Blackburn's It Dies With You
    • Donald Ryan's Don Bronco's (Working Title) Shell
    • Jay Gertzman's The Promise of Country Noir
    • Hard Mountain Clay Review
    • Blake Johnson's Prodigal: An American Parable
  • Jobbers
    • Dead Wrestlers
    • The Night Bruiser Came to Town
    • Big Rig by Shaun Jex
    • A Night Out with Big Ricky by Katy Goforth
    • War Eagle by David Barker
    • True Dreams of Wichita by Shaun Jex
    • Doink the Clown Works Birthday Parties by Michael Chin
    • The Ballad of Ethel Bridges by David P. Barker
    • House Show in Badger County High School Gym by Simon Nagel
    • 288 Miles by David P. Barker
    • Corn Dogs by Shaun Jex
    • Getting Ready + Cowboy by Michael Chin
    • American Dream by Robert Libbey
    • Training Partner by A.A. Rubin
    • Finding the von Erichs by Shaun Jex
    • The Making of Big Sandy by Michael Carter
    • Pot Roast from Vance Godbey's by Mark A. Nobles
    • Abdullah the Butcher in Gotham by Mark A. Nobles
    • PWI by Josh Olsen
  • CJ Issues Archive
    • Oh Death!
    • Flood Waters
    • with Alacrity!
    • the Family Strain
    • All We Need of Hell-Harry Crews Tribute
    • My Dog Died-a Larry Brown inspired issue
    • Rural Enterprises
    • Grotesque to Art-in the vein of Donald Ray Pollock
    • Henry Chinaski is a Friend of Mine-the Charles Bukowski issue
    • a Mess of Catfish
    • Prine Primed-incited by John Prine
    • Asquint
    • Buried Child-inspired by Sam Shepard
    • New Fools Are Here to Take Your Place-incited by Breece D'J Pancake
    • THALIA ET ALIA-incited by Larry McMurtry
    • Country & Folk
    • Nothing's Gonna Change the Way You Feel About Me Now
    • ISSUE 9.2: the All Covers Album >
      • Sitting in the Laundromat with A Manual for Cleaning Women
      • Kentucky Folklore
      • Caught in a Trap
      • Are You Sure Merle Done It This Way?
      • Tracking
      • Playing Hooky
      • Evangelina & Hunting Bremmer's Mesa
      • Catty-Corner House
      • Blood on the Creek Bank
      • Skeeter
      • Vivian Davis, American
      • Thyroid
      • Wonderin'
      • Playing Cowboy
      • Old Dog
      • Archipelago
      • Keep YR Eye on the Moon
      • 3 Poems by Justin Carter
      • It Ain't Me
      • Heaven's Gonna Have a Honky-Tonk
    • ISSUE 10.1: A CASE OF KINK >
      • Deadhead
      • Fickster the Fixer
      • Get the Money
      • Shady Acres
      • The Ugly Death of Ferrari McGee
      • Burly Pete Calls It A Day
      • Blame It On The Blue Line
      • The Detective
      • The Tattletales (excerpt)
    • ISSUE 10.2: Tough Women, Gritty Tales >
      • "Stupid" by Rebecca Tiger
      • "Rattlesnakes" by Sabrina Hicks
      • "Destination Unknown" by Sarah Holloway
      • "Juniper" by Sarah Holloway
      • "The Stand" by Kathryn Silver-Hajo
      • "On Friday, Good Catholics Eat Fish" by Terena Elizabeth Bell
      • "Bodies in Bags" by Jamie Gallagher
      • "Sun Down" by Amy Marques
      • "Fourteen" by Megan Hanlon
      • "A Stroll" by Natalie Nee
      • "White Biped Form, 1954" by Mary Thorson
      • "Thanks for Stopping" by Tom Andes
      • "Dog Days" by Angela James
      • "26" by Pam Avoledo
      • "To The Men I've Missed" by Katy Goforth
  • Our Father's Lit: Western Pulp